I disclose...
From the Start
Hi, I'm Ms. Ashley, a young girl of Rizzy's age who grew up with simple yet complicated life. Both of my relatives on mother and father's side were expecting a lot of me, especially on my studies. It is a lot of expectation though but I managed to be always on the honor list. But none of it made me happy. Why? 'cause I'm only doin' it for my family. As I grew up, I had been exposed to different types of people, be in different places and culture. I tried living life as simple as possible but life isn't fair- not with me. I got friends, yes, but just plain friends of which made me often wonder what could possibly was wrong with me that I couldn't even keep just one. Am always in between of any fights in the group and got to be blamed for all of it. Have tried pleasing everyone but it isn't enough. They just come in and out of my life - no permanent at all.
Depression enveloped my being but I hide it to myself. Wearing happy and contented mask is the only weapon I got. People would actually describe me
Sad to belong...
I was listening to itunes this afternoon and got myself humming over and over again with the song "Oh, It's sad to belong to someone else when the right one comes along- by England Dan & John Ford Coley". I don't know but it just made me wonder somehow, how could one possibly know that the person he/she just met while being committed to someone else is the right one? *smiles* Personally, I don't think it's possible, not because it didn't happened to me (believe me, it happened a lot of times..lolz), but what's not possible is when you say - the right one comes along. I mean, how would you know really? The worst thing I could think of that could possibly happen to a person being in the situation is: let's say....you're engaged then you met this person (in between), you shared a lot of common things and became intimate then you decided to end your current relationship, only to realize later that you've got wrong interpretation of the whole situation - 'bout your feelings. For sure you will end up saying (still part of the song) "wish I have a time machine, until the day I was born and I would live my life again, and rearrange it so that I'll be back..." not to be yours but to stay in my relationship. ^.^ -giggles-
The whole process of finding True Love lies on how you put meaning towards Existence.
how will you ever find love?"
Afraid of....
